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Kateness.nu as my personal domain is coming to a close. I have bigger and better dreams for a personal blog. Kateness.nu has seen me through some very troubling times and has always been there for me and in respect for the domain, I’ve decided to NOT get rid of it but implement it as a side blog. I will be posting whatever the hey I want to post here but I also have some side projects as well. I think Kateness.nu might turn over into a portfolio, web hosting site, and a blog all in one.

So what are my other projects you might ask? Well one is a weight loss blog in which I plan on documenting my journey and discussing anything and everything related to diet and exercise including side effects of diet pills and why a lifestyle change is much safer than another fad diet.

Also, I plan on opening a new and improved personal domain. I feel that a new start is what I need for my new life. I have changed in so many ways and I think I need to open up a new spot on the interwebz in order to honor the new chapter of my life. I absolutely adore married life and the livelihood of being a new step-mommy to the most amazing 10 month old (turned 10 months old TODAY) baby boy ever to grace this Earth even though I might be a little biased. Lol. I just feel like this is a step in the right direction and is much needed. I plan on getting rid of a lot of posts here as well.

Another project would be yet another domain but this domain is a place I can talk about my dorky side from television rants and raves to information on the latest games I’m addicted to like my renewed addiction to WoW!

So as you can see, Kate will be quite the busy bee so please bare with me as I transition into everything. Also, please note that I am unsure of when my personal blog will be back up but I can guarantee it will be sometime in June. I’m waiting on some more money to come through and then I will purchase the domain. I already have it picked out so that’s not the problem, lol. I have everything ready to go once I purchase the domain. So until then, I will be blogging here about whatever my little heart desires and will be taking posts from various websites!

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There’s an anchor for my soul

The movie last night was pretty good. It actually made me tear up at the end but I will not spoil it for anyone. I love how Tyler Perry can have a movie full of laughter but in the last ten to twenty minutes of the movie he can suddenly change the whole tone of the movie and play with your emotions. He is very talented. It’s also hard for me to see him playing a serious role because when he starts talking and getting all excited all I can see is Madea in my mind. All in all, it was a really good movie but I definitely wished we would have waited until it was out on DVD because I had a headache after the movie. Everyone in the theater was yelling out and clapping during the movie. I’m sorry but who claps during a movie? Also, since when is it okay to yell out in the middle of the movie? These two ladies behind us that can only be labeled as ghetto kept making all these comments throughout the movie and clapping so loud right behind my head. I swear, I wanted to say something but I hung up my bitch hat before I left the house and decided I would have a nice evening so I wasn’t going to let them set me off. I just couldn’t believe how rude they were.

The site is officially moved over to Hostgator. I noticed this morning I must have blogged yesterday in between servers so I had to get those posts off the old server and repost them which is why if you checked the site and suddenly there were two new posts, that is why. I am just happy to have a fast loading site again. Hostgator, how I’ve missed thee. Now if I could only get access to my domain Hostaxia’s files off of FTP through the old server. I can’t access it through the IP address which is ironic. I don’t know what’s going on. I did get everyone else moved over though thankfully. Once Hostaxia’s files are moved over I will be cancelling my account with Holdfire and hopefully getting my money back. Surely to God she should give me my money back that has not been used. If not, I don’t know what I am going to do. I am scared because I’ve heard numerous stories about how they are with getting money back but hopefully that has changed.

Anyways, my brother and his wife are here which is annoying because I am trying to get my mom dressed so we can go get registered. We didn’t go to church this morning because I overslept and had a headache and now I am geared up to go to Wal-Mart. I know for one thing we plan on registering for some allergy bedding. I want a new memory foam pad for my mattress that is hypoallergenic because now I am starting to get the sneezes and stuff at night. I swear, I hate my allergies. I woke up this morning with puffy eyes and a runny nose. I don’t know what is up with that. Also, during the spring and summer time I get this little bumps on my arms right around my elbows and that drives me bonkers. I plan on going to the doctor this week and seeing about them because I scratch until they bleed which makes my arms look bad. I’ve never had a doctor that could figure out what it is exactly. All they do is put me on some medicine that doesn’t work so hopefully my new kick-butt doctor can find a permanent solution. I definitely don’t want my arms looking rough for my wedding day! So, my sister-in-law and brother just left so it’s time to go rush my mom, lol. Until next time, later loves!

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Moving, again!

I plan on moving the sites back to Hostgator today. Actually, the move is in the process and I will cancel my Holdfire account tomorrow. I have nothing against Holdfire but there service just isn’t for me. I have had so many problems since swapping which I’m not neccesarily saying it’s problems on their end but my sites kept reverting and them my nameservers wouldn’t work so I think it’s just safer to move back. Plus, I love how Hostgator didn’t give me any problems before. The only reason I moved was because I needed a smaller reseller and Holdfire was a lot cheaper but that doesn’t mean anything. It’s kinda like the mbt shoes. Ya know, the shoes that are supposed to feel like you’re walking barefoot in the sand, well that’s how Holdfire is since like the mbt shoes, Holdfire was too good to be true. So if you notice any downtime or what not, please bare with me. I’m working everything out!

I just wanted to post a quick update before I head out to go to Gondolier’s and then the movies. We’re going to see Why Did I Get Married Too! I hope it’s good!

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Bunnies and Such

I finally finished my new theme. I am so happy you have no idea. I worked hard on this theme since I really wanted to try a three column style layout instead of my usual two column. I think I did pretty well and plan on tweaking a few things but that can wait. I really just wanted to release this theme before I start working on my two pending projects for my education classes and watch my Spanish DVD’s.

I have been emerging myself into creating this theme because truth be known, I’m having a really hard time controlling my thoughts and emotions this weekend. On Friday I noticed my cousin’s fiance had made a post on Facebook about how she was so excited to be spending last night with my family at her wedding shower. My cousin and his fiance are getting married in June which is a month after my wedding. At first, I didn’t think anything of it until my cousin and sister-in-law were commenting how everyone would be there and how much fun it’d be to have everyone together again. When I read their comments, it really hurt my feelings. Everyone would be there. Everyone except me that is. I just don’t understand how my father’s side of the family can exile me all the time. I am never invited to family holidays or events, and they hardly ever talk to me as it is. In fact, none of them have even RSVP’ed to my wedding. I just don’t understand what I ever did to them. I was very upset Friday night and last night as well. I guess that is yet another blow I can record that has been dealt to me by my father and his family. It wouldn’t bother me if it wasn’t out in the open. Then of course, my cousin, sister-in-law, and nephew’s girlfriend has to all post on their Facebook about how much fun they had last night and everything else. I guess I just feel really alone and unwanted by them because I am definitely the black sheep.

Friday night Jonathan left to spend the night with his friend so he could work at his uncle’s Saturday. He was supposed to be back Saturday night but as usual, he didn’t come home. I was upset because honestly, I needed him. I know I sound like a needy little kid but I depend on him a lot emotionally. He is my rock and he makes everything better. It also didn’t help that he just stopped texting me last night for no reason. I was having a hard enough time and then to feel exiled by him just made it worse. I had all of these nasty thoughts and images going through my head of him and other girls. I don’t know why that is the number one place my brain goes, but it is. I am indeed my own worst enemy and I am unsure how to change that. When things get tough, my mind automatically thinks of anything and everything to make times even tougher. I just feel like I am on steady ground with everything circling with my father and then my wedding coming up. A marriage is forever and that is beginning to scare me. What if he turns out like my dad? If my own father can just stop loving me, what makes me think Jonathan won’t do the same? I feel like an emotional wreck.

All these doubts and thoughts are swirling around me like a black fog. I feel like I can’t even breathe at times. You have no idea how hard this is making my school right now. I am going to be lucky to even pass my History class as it is since I studied so hard for a test and only managed to get a 70. My thoughts are preoccupied with May 1st and wondering what exactly has happened to make relationships with my so-called family so messed up. I really think it is time to shut this chapter of my life. I know I just need to let it go and close the book but it is so hard to turn your back on family. Even though they don’t act like my family and as Jonathan so nicely put it, they treat me like shit, I am afraid to cut the ties with them. Hopefully with some heavy praying and some long talks with God I can get everything straightened out and have the strength to let go of everything. I really want to start off my life with Jonathan in a positive direction, not so messed up with the past.

Also, I am looking for new blog links so if you’d like to swap links or what not or can recommend some good blogs to read, please let me know! I’m looking to build up my blogroll so I can have a lot of new blogs to read as well as my favorite ones already listed.

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My day of semi-rest

I finally took a day of rest for myself. I was supposed to be observing for my education class but I decided I needed a day of rest. I have been bogged down with everything that needs to be done and trying to take care of things for others that I have neglected my own health. I seriously have been sleeping like a log and have been tired all the time lately. I am slowly torturing myself by taking on too much at one time so today is about saying screw everything and let’s have a Katie day!

The only thing on my agenda today is to address the last 20 invitations and get them mailed, look up an auto insurance quote from different companies here since our insurance has gone up $100 for some reason, and then to finally attend the Tenabrae service tonight at church which I am kind of excited about since this is the first time our church has done this. Even though it isn’t exactly a full day of rest, it is a day where I don’t have as much to do as usual so I can squeeze in an hour or two of me time hopefully. I also am going to see about working on the theme!