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1 Bullet to the head, please!

I have a horrible headache and unfortunately I’m going to have to grin and bare it. I have to be at orientation in an hour and a half. I didn’t sleep well last night and woke up with a pounding head, a runny nose, and an ear ache. Yes, I’m in sad shape which is why I could seriously use a bullet to the head right about now. I have no idea how I’m going to make it through four hours of orientation. I guess I will have to woman up, put on my big girl panties, and deal. Joy.

Tonight Rans and I are going to the Monster Jam at the Georgia Dome as well. He is overly excited and since I have a headache, I’m not so excited but as soon as I get home from orientation I plan on popping migraine medicine, napping, and getting better. For those that don’t know what Monster Jam is it’s a monster truck thing. Yes, Rans loves his monster trucks and I’ve never seen them so what the hey.

I will find time to blog later. For now I feel like I’m about to puke up the coke I just drank. Fun. I also need to brush my teeth, get dressed and leave. So until next time, later gators!

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Somedays, I wish I were in a fairytale

So much for uploading all of my Halloween photos because today I didn’t even wake up until well after noon. I swear when I woke up I felt like a freight train had ran my ass over. My whole body hurts and my throat is doing that let’s play with fire every time Kate swallows. Yeah throat, I love you too. I kind of had an accident with my bed so now one of my slats is completely messed up. The other day I moved my bed over to get something and unplug something and when I moved it back this slat wouldn’t go in place. So I being Miss Brilliant kicked it and jammed it into place. That so was not smart considering it decided to break two days ago and I had to sleep feeling like my head was downhill and my feet were uphill. That is so not good for my lungs! So that is the main reason I woke up at 7 AM this morning with a migraine from hell and a neck ache. When I grabbed my phone and looked to see the time I noticed I had a text message which was from Rans asking me if I was sick and telling me he had a fever of 101. So I guess I’m not the only sick one!

Moving on from the subject of sickness, I text messaged Rans to tell him we needed to talk. See, I have a problem with accepting compliments and when he gives them, I either say some smartass comeback or I completely play it off which makes me feel stupid. I guess when I look in the mirror, I don’t see anything worth complimenting on. I in no ways think I’m the ugliest person but I just don’t think I’m pretty or what not. Well, when he gives me compliments and tells me certain things I do feel pretty but only for a split second. Well, he assumed since I told him the dreaded “we need to talk” I was breaking up with him. Poor babe. I immediately explained and now everything is all good. I really want to learn how to be the loving and caring girlfriend that I want to be, I’m just too scared to be. I’m so scared that once I open up, things will go horribly wrong and I will be all alone again. Only this time, I know I’m with who I am supposed to be with and I know its forever. I just have some things to work out with the inner me which is a lot easier to address with this blog. So yes readers, your blogista is a very insecure girl trying to break out of her shell slowly but surely. I can’t change over night. I have so many things to get over and so many fuck you’s to say before I can move on!

Anyways, I am going to go play Sims 2 with Selena, my little sister. She is sick, too. She managed to sleep even later than I did which is really rare and bless her heart, she has a really bad cough! So I’m playing big sister and going to play the Sims and eat blow pops! Ha. So until next time, later gators! And Selena says good night all!

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Mother Nature, must you hate us?

The weather officially sucks big ones. I was so excited that Rans was going to be up here last night and when I walked into the kitchen from getting groceries and picking up some fast food for dinner I immediately was saddened. Rans is sick and his eyes were all puffy and watery. Poor baby. So now after spending time with him, I’m stopping up, too. Actually I think pretty much everyone I know of is getting sick. It’s the weather since Mother Nature can’t pick a season. Last week it was in the high 70′s and everyone was wearing shorts and capris but today it’s in the low 50′s for a high and low 30′s for our daytime low. Heck, yesterday I wore bermuda shorts and a tee shirt and was fine but today I wouldn’t step out without having on jeans and a hoodie.

So today I spent most of my time sleeping. I forgot to take my synthroid lately which had me feeling really weak and really moody the past few days so now that I took it last night, I feel like I’m going through a roller coaster. One minute I will be fine and the next my body will be aching again. I hate this. I lost my medicine when I packed it up from our trip to Gatlinburg. I finally found it the other day so now I can get back to feeling better.

Although today I almost had a heart attack!! I’m swapping colleges in January and I thought the deadline to have everything in was November 1st. Well, no, it’s not. Thank God. I have to have a copy of my GED scores (I got my GED because my mom was in a bad car wreck so I became home schooled to help around the house) and I could not find them anywhere. So I have to now mail this form in and wait 4 weeks for me to receive my scores. That’s fine as long as all my information is submitted by December 10th. Financial aid has to be submitted by the 1st of November which is not a big problem at all. I’m just so excited that I finally made up my mind. I’ve let my past with the rape and social anxiety govern my life for so long. I’ve been scared to try new things and pursue my dreams so I played it safe by taking majors I knew I would be good at. After my summer vacation, I had some time to really think about my life and what all I wanted. I made up my mind that I wanted to be a teacher and I wanted Rans. So I already got Rans, now it’s time to get the teaching degree. Heh. So tomorrow I plan on mailing my form off.

I can’t describe how awesome I feel knowing what I want. Anyways, I need to go cook dinner. Mexican chicken!!! I’ll have to take a pic and post a recipe later. Maybe I will add some recipes to my blog. That’d be awesome since I love to bake and cook but I haven’t felt like cooking for a while now. It’s funny that now that I’m happy I can’t wait to bake away! Lol. So until next time, later gators.

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*yawn*

Wow Kate, way to go on not blogging for a while! Go me. *sarcasm*

I’m not really in a great mood right now but I was tired of my blog looking inhabited. Does that word make sense in that sentence? It sounded good in my head at least. So a lot has happened since I last blogged but I don’t wanna go there right now. All I want to do is sleep. I am tired and more than that, my throat is killing me. Three days ago, I woke up and my throat was hurting. Usually this wouldn’t bother me but now it does because not only is my throat hurting but I’m on my period, too. Yay for pain. I assumed the sore throat was due to me sleeping with my mouth open since my room is always cold at night since that is how I sleep. Boy was I wrong. Yesterday I took a nap and woke up with my throat hurting ten times worse to the point I couldn’t swallow. So my mom being the dandy nurse she is took a peak at my throat and almost puked. I was like “OMG mom!! What’s wrong??” So she told me to look and I did. The back of my throat was blood red and swollen. That wasn’t the gross part though. Evidently I had puss pockets all over my tonsil area. It was sick but yet cool and intriguing at the same time. I made Rob look. Lol. So did Selena and my sister Beth. Ha, I was a science experiment.

So today, I went to the doctor since obviously puss pockets isn’t a good thing. They swabbed my throat and all that goodness but the strep test came back negative. My mom said she wouldn’t be surprised if when they sent it off it grew into strep. The lady who swabbed my throat was scared I was going to puke on her but I really wanted to tell her to swab the puss area because I wanted to know what it was darnit! She didn’t though. In fact, it felt like the swabbed the back side area of my mouth instead of the back of my throat. So the doctor gave me an z-pack, something else, and then Lortabs for pain. Dude, he gave me Lortab 7.5 which knock my ass out. He asked if I need anything for pain and I said yes cause I thought he’d give me this throat stuff like I got last time but he gave me Lortabs. I find that hilarious but I took two already, one when I got home since I didn’t sleep last night and one a few minutes ago so I can sleep. The rest I’ll save for a day I have a migraine. I don’t like to feel all fuzzy and loopy from medicine so I don’t take pain killers often.

The only thing that sucks about being sick is I am a bitch on wheels and I know it. My poor boyfriend has had to endure quite a lot of bitchiness from my period and then me being sick. My whole period issue irritated me. I take Yazmin because if I don’t, I will never have a period. Well I was supposed to start Sunday and I didn’t until today so I was freaking out. I took a pregnancy test since a) I’m sexually active and b) I was paranoid because I usually start Sunday night. When I took Ortho Tri Cyclin, it always started on time but it never has with Yazmin. Granted my periods are nowhere near as bad now but still, I want to know when I am going to! Ya know? My mom advised me to wait at least three months taking the medicine on time. This is my first month since I messed up last month thanks to Wal-Mart closing on Labor Day. Grr.

Anyways, I will blog more later. This Tuesday I leave for Gatlinburg. I’ll explain all about that later. I’ll post some pics of us in Gatlinburg next weekend hopefully! Until next time, later gators!!

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Hello Opportunity!

The past few days I have felt crappy. My stomach has been hurting, I’ve been puking left and right, and I’ve felt weak. So last night instead of my normal “let’s talk all night, baby” session with Scott, I decided to go to bed early since I was falling asleep anyways.

This morning, the phone rang and when I grabbed the phone and looked at the caller ID, I had to try to force myself to stay calm and not do the jump up and down happy dance. You see, yesterday I submitted my resumes to two places. While sending these e-mails, I saw this e-mail from this place I interviewed at last year before I decided to go back to school again. This was an awesome opportunity but in my family, education is everything so I chose school. Well, one of the places I submitted my resume to was at that same company but for an inside sales job. After talking to the woman, she said I still was a candidate for the position I interviewed for last year but opted to not take. She asked if it would interfere with my school and I told her no. The new position is for inside sales and I’d basically be making $12.00 an hour plus commission. The awesome part is it is a Monday through Friday gig and I’d get off of work at 5 PM. The other job is a technical support rep and I’d make $11.25 an hour and not have a set schedule and January through April, I’d be working 12 hour shifts 5 days a week but I’d definitely rack up that overtime. I would end that job around May and not work again until like November the next year. That gives me time to go to school in my down time but I have no guarantee I would be hired on and not considered temp which sucks.

I want a year round job with weekends off so I can still take online classes. The sales job is perfect. I go in Thursday to take a computer test geared towards sales. The good thing is that she feels either way I will get a job whether it’s inside sales, technical support, or even a customer service gig. I am excited. I need a job and after September 13th, I will only be able to take one class a semester until I get past some of these pre-requisites. So let’s all keep the fingers crossed for Kateness.

Well I need to get some stuff done for one of my classes and put my sheets and comforter in the washer. Yes, it’s laundry day! Lol. So until next time, later lovelies!