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Frustration & Confusion .. not a good combo

So last night after class, I came into my room to check my e-mail and was completely floored. I had about 100 sign-ups to various newsletters that I never signed up for. Then I had an invite to maximtogo in which “Randy” (Rans real name) left me this message “i want a hotter girfriend cuz ur ugly sweete baby kate” which I’m sure you can guess my reaction to that. So basically I got a message from my boyfriend saying I was ugly. Wow, thanks. I sent him a text message and was really pissed and then after thinking about it I realized it wasn’t him. So I texted him again and told him that. This whole time he is barely texting me.

In fact, he never said I love you, never said anything sweet, he just barely talked. I’m beginning to get used to this from him. Back when we first started dating I poured my heart out to him over voicemail since he wouldn’t pick up and he never said anything. So I’m trying to realize he is a changed person and not think that history is repeating itself but it’s hard. I’m so used to being pessimistic and I’m so used to him, I don’t want to lose him. I don’t know why people are messing with him.

Now moving on to this morning, I have close to 500 spam messages TO his old and new email address that I got sent. They are all spam newsletters and I am livid. I can’t even decipher what’s my real e-mail and what’s not because there are so many messages filling up Thunderbird. I did see a message that I got a little while ago from his friend who has received the same messages as well. So at least it’s not me. I tried to e-mail him and ask him what’s going on but he hasn’t replied. I don’t know if he’s busy or asleep or just ignoring me. I’m hoping he’s asleep.

So my question is have you ever had something happen to you that you really wanted to think the worst and it was overpowering your attempts to remain positive? If so what did you do and how did the situation turn out? I was told by someone I need to have more faith in people and I am really trying to but it’s hard when you’re so used to getting crapped on relentlessly.

Anyways, I need to get dressed and head to my first class. Yay communications. *sarcasm* I have to give a speech introducing a fellow classmate and I am so worried I’ll stumble all over my words. I don’t like speaking in front of people but at least it’s only 5 other people! It definitely could be worse. So until next time, later gators.

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Day # 2 @ Highlands

So orientation wasn’t as bad as I expected. It was just long, tiring, and boring. It was supposed to start at 9 AM but we didn’t end up really starting until almost 10:30 AM. So from 8:30 AM until 10:30 AM we all had to sit in these bleachers, packed in like sardines, and watch this movie about student life over and over. Yes, it was not amusing at all. Finally when everything began, it wasn’t so bad. We learned about the college, got our charger cards (student debit card which all our financial aid goes on and a card we can add money to and also receive discounts from various businesses for being a student), signed up for classes, paid for classes, and some of us got our books that day. I did not get my books since I had to rush home in order to leave in time for Monster Jam.

I was so tired when I got home so Rans left to get us some lunch and then after we eat we left for the Georgia Dome. It didn’t take that long to get there but parking was horrendous. We had to pay $30 to park which wasn’t bad since we were near the dome but still, that’s a lot. I couldn’t walk very far since my ankle was already swollen from where I decided to gracefully bust my butt at school when I went to take the COMPASS test. The actual Monster Jam wasn’t bad. I liked the trick quad riders. I will post some pics later. Grave Digger won overall, the races and the freestyle so he got the double whammy trophy or whatever. After Monster Jam when we were leaving was HELL. It started pouring down rain and we had to walk in the rain, uphill, and then up these steep steps to get to where we parked. I thought I was going to die and freeze to death all at the same time. I was soaking wet. After we got to the field we parked in, we were slipping and sliding in mud. My jeans will never be the same!!! Then while we were leaving, Rans almost his this dude. Lol. He was walking across the street and we were moving slowly through traffic and I guess he didn’t see him cause he came out of nowhere. Luckily the guy was alright about it and his friend thought it was hilarious. Geez people, cross the street where you are supposed to, don’t just weave through traffic!

I didn’t really do anything on Sunday except search for a book bag. Nowhere at our mall had decent book bags. I just ended up ordering a messenger bag from Zappo;s. It’s cute. On Monday, I had my first classes and had to pick up my books. Rans dropped me off so he could walk in and grab the books I didn’t need which I thought was very nice. My tuition and books were uber expensive but I will receive all of it back thanks to Pell and Stafford Loans. My actual classes on Monday were okay. I met some friends which is always nice. I actually have work to do for one of my classes which I am oddly excited about. Yes, I know, I’m a nerd.

Today I had my communications class. It was so-so. Luckily there are only six people in my class since we have to get speeches and all that jazz. We just introduced each other and did an ice breaker today. We also have to do an introduction speech Thursday introducing a fellow classmate. I have to write my notes for that. It will be easy though. So here are the classes I am taking:

- ARTS 1113: Art Appreciation (Thur. 6:30 PM – 9:15 PM)
- COMM 1100: Human Communication (Tue. & Thur. 2:00 PM – 3:15 PM)
- ENGL 1101: English Composition (Mon. & Wed. 6:30 PM – 7:45 PM)
- FCCS 1100: Freshman College Computer Studies (Mon. & Wed. 5:00 PM – 6:15 PM)
- MATH 0099: Intermediate Algebra (Tue. & Thur. 4:30 PM – 6:20 PM)

I also have to take the Reading & Writing portion of the Regents’ test this semester on March 2 at 1 PM. Fun. I am looking forward to this semester and am pretty okay with my classes. I wish I could swap my math and communications classes for different times since I’d rather be with my friends from my Monday and Wednesday classes but I am not swapping my communications class since there are only 6 people in it. The less people the less people I can make an ass of myself in front of.

Anyways, I need to run. I came home between my communications class and algebra class so I could eat and rest for a few. Now I have to head back. So until next time, later gator!

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1 Bullet to the head, please!

I have a horrible headache and unfortunately I’m going to have to grin and bare it. I have to be at orientation in an hour and a half. I didn’t sleep well last night and woke up with a pounding head, a runny nose, and an ear ache. Yes, I’m in sad shape which is why I could seriously use a bullet to the head right about now. I have no idea how I’m going to make it through four hours of orientation. I guess I will have to woman up, put on my big girl panties, and deal. Joy.

Tonight Rans and I are going to the Monster Jam at the Georgia Dome as well. He is overly excited and since I have a headache, I’m not so excited but as soon as I get home from orientation I plan on popping migraine medicine, napping, and getting better. For those that don’t know what Monster Jam is it’s a monster truck thing. Yes, Rans loves his monster trucks and I’ve never seen them so what the hey.

I will find time to blog later. For now I feel like I’m about to puke up the coke I just drank. Fun. I also need to brush my teeth, get dressed and leave. So until next time, later gators!

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Wow, time flies or I’m just lazy!

Wow, I can’t believe how much time has passed since I last blogged. Christmas came and went as did New Years. I will post more pictures later, I’m just trying to make a quick post in order to vent my frustrations and hopefully get in a better mood. I am full of anxiety right now over the big test I am supposed to take tomorrow morning.

Tomorrow is when I have to take my COMPASS test. I am really nervous but extremely excited at the same time. I just hope I score high enough to not take any extra classes. I’ve always been the nervous type when it comes to tests. I always assume I am going to do horrible but always end up doing fairly well. My friend said it was pretty easy since you build up with the difficulty of your questions and when you miss two in a row you go back down a level. I am pretty sure I will score alright it’s just the test said stuff about calculus and other crap I never had since I was home schooled and never had to have it in college. Sadly, none of my core classes from my old college transferred. Oh well. I guess I will just start over and deal with it. I really don’t have a choice anyways.

So anyways, I am going to finish watching last night’s episode of “Secret Life” and head to bed. I just need to unwind. Thankfully I have the support of my family and my amazing boyfriend. Rans is awesome. I told him about my friend who lost 108 lbs. with Weight Watchers and power walking in eight months and I thought I might try to join Weight Watchers again since my thyroid level is finally where it is supposed to be. So after telling him about it and telling him I thought about joining he was really supportive. He told me he loved me the way I was but he was all for me becoming healthier. So we’ll see how that goes. I won’t be able to join until Thursday though since I have my test tomorrow. So I’m off to relax now. So until next time, later gator.

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Christmas Spirit

Wow, for the life of me I cannot fully comprehend that tomorrow is in fact Christmas Eve. Where has this year gone? I’ve gone through so much this year and it feels like yesterday I was just leaving for summer vacation. Has the year flown by for everyone else?

If you haven’t noticed, I have a new theme. I really like the simplicity of it but yet it’s very chic at the same time. It totally fits my personality. Tawni at Forever Design Studio is amazing. I really didn’t feel like making my own theme with so much going on so I commissioned one from her and I was definitely not disappointed with the outcome or the price either. I highly recommend her.

I have a load of last minute Christmas items to pick up. I feel completely overwhelmed. I think the visit from Mary totally messed up my schedule but it was well worth it!! I think I just forgot it was so close to Christmas and plus neither one of us felt that great when she was down here thanks to the weather. Speaking of weather, it’s supposed to be in the 40′s today but Christmas Eve and Christmas Day are supposed to be in the upper 50′s, lower 60′s. That is so not going to feel like Christmas at all.

I figured I’d try to blog since my mom woke me up so early to try to get myself in the Christmas Spirit. I have been lately but not so much right now since my mind is half asleep still. I haven’t been sleeping well. In fact, only time I do sleep well is when Rans is here. I keep having these messed up dreams that make me not want to sleep and when I do get some sleep I wake up and my whole body hurts. I don’t know what is going on but it needs to chill so I can take the COMPASS test January 7th. With little to no sleep I know I won’t be doing that well so come on sleep, straighten up.

I need to run and get dressed. We’re trying to get to Wal-Mart a little earlier since most people around here will be sleeping in thanks to the horrible weather. It’s in the 20′s right now and the wind feels like little blades of ice. I hate it. So until next time, later gators! I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday!!

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