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Tick tock

Hey everyone! I know, I’ve been a horrible blogger yet again but there has been so much happening lately it isn’t even funny!

We will back up to December 16 when I had my doctor’s appointment with the new doctor. First off, I love my doctor! She is so amazing and supporting and spent forty-five minutes with me just answering my various questions. It turns out I have PCOS which at that moment shattered me. I felt broken and less of a woman because this greatly reduces my chances of getting pregnant and since I was planning on getting engaged, it made me feel like I wouldn’t be able to offer Jonathan this great future which broke my heart. I told him the news and he was upset as well but he was very supportive about everything which is what I needed at the time. I honestly thought that because of my diagnosis, he wouldn’t want to marry me. I know that sounds stupid but for ever since I can remember I’ve always dreamed of being a mom and having at least three kids. Another part of my dilemma is that I know of a close family friend that has PCOS and she hasn’t been able to get pregnant after numerous attempts with all sorts of medication.

Jonathan obviously surprised me big time because that night, even after knowing about the chance we would never have kids, PROPOSED! Yes, he got down on one knee and all in front of the lighted fountain at the forum in Rome. It was so beautiful there at night even though we froze our butts off. My ring is gorgeous and I mean gorgeous. I am quite surprised at his taste. My baby knows how to pick a ring I tell ya. Lol. Of course I said yes!! It was so cute though because he was so nervous and before he asked he went into this big long explanation about how he had this speech planned and it was so romantic and everything but at the last second his mind totally blanked and he felt stupid for it. I could not believe how nervous he was, but later that night he told me the speech and it was the sweetest thing ever.

Now since I am running out of time, I will make a list of what else has happened:
- Christmas was awesome!!
- I got to see my dad who is really depressed with his diagnosis of liver disease but evidently I cheered him up by being around him.
- Jonathan’s grandma got really sick and passed away.
- I’ve been spending most of my time consoling him and just being there for him because per him, I’m all he has.
- We picked out bridesmaid dresses and the color of the guys vests and ties for their tuxes.
- I have basically picked out two wedding dresses and will try them on Tuesday.
- I have a full-load of classes this semester.
- Evidently per my friends, my history professor is hard as crap and if you don’t pay attention to his lectures, you’re dead!
- I have to be at my first class in 45 minutes!

With that said, I am out. I wanted to quickly blog and update all my lovelies on my hectic life. I will post a pic of my ring later! I love it and love wearing it!! Hehe, I’m like a giddy school girl I swear. Also, I will now have time in the morning to blog, so yay! So until next time, later loves!

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You’ll always be my thunder

I am happy to report my first weigh in with THRIVE went awesome. I lost 12 pounds last week. Yes, 12 pounds! That is seriously like the weight of my dog so basically, I lost a Jack. I was really proud of myself. I also weighed again tonight and lost another 4 pounds! So in two weeks, I’ve lost 16 pounds which is a lot of weight to come off my body in two weeks. Sadly, I don’t know if I will be losing again next week since I am going on vacation. I am very proud of myself but I really have earned this break. I need a break from the stress of school and not have to think about things such as what can I eat, etc. I do plan on drinking a lot of water and Sprite while I’m gone and eating within my timings. I have decided to treat myself to what I want to eat within reason for the next few days while I’m in Gatlinburg. I will deal with the repercussions once I get home. I do know once I get back it will be right back on THRIVE because this program is actually working for me which I am so excited about. You have no idea how exciting it is to step on a scale and see a smaller number compared to the last week. I also love the thrill of stepping into clothes that were a little snug or too tight a few weeks ago and have them fit a lot better now.

So as I’ve mentioned, I leave for Gatlinburg tomorrow. I am going with Jonathan, my sister Beth, and her boyfriend, Hayden. I really think we’ll have a fun trip since we were just informed this is the first week of the lights as well. Gatlinburg is known for it’s awesome lights around the holidays and this time we’ll get to see them for the first time this year. That is really exciting. We were also told about a trolley ride you can take to go view all of the lights which I am sure we will be doing. I love Christmas time and I love looking at all the lights. Even if we don’t do anything while we’re in Gatlinburg I will just be happy for a time away from home with no stress.

This past week has been a week of hell. Last Thursday I went to Scary Berry with Jonathan, Beth, and Hayden. Scary Berry was not so scary since I only got scared in one part. In the paper it was advertised as a haunted HAY RIDE but that actually turned out to be a short hay ride that drops you off in the middle of the woods where you make a mile trek back to the hay ride in the dark. I laughed at so many parts of it because it was so corny. The only part I got really scared at was a clown. I hate clowns. Yes, I know it’s an irrational fear but I can’t help it. There is just something about their white faces and red nose that rubs me the wrong way. I think this fear stems from watching the Stephen King movie with the clowns. So I saw a clown, freaked out, and twisted my knee. This all happened a quarter mile into the walk so I had to limp the rest of the three-quarters through the woods and Jonathan and I ended up being way behind the group. I swear, I felt like the biggest loser but the fact Jonathan stayed with me and kept telling me I was going to be okay really helped. I swear, I love that boy and the fact that he was so compassionate towards my injury really made me realize he feels the same way. When other stuff tried to come up to me he kinda turned me the opposite way. I guess he thought I was scared or something, I have no clue. I was just so glad to get back to the trailer when I did because I really thought I was gonna pass out from pain.

Halloween night was also eventful at my household since two adults decided to start cussing each other out and almost get into a fight in the middle of the road. Since when is it acceptable to drop the F bomb left and right around children? Never in my book which is exactly why I called the cops so they could kindly break them apart and move everything out of the street. Coach Shiftlett, out neighbor across the street, broke the fight up before it got physical thankfully. He also kept one of the adults fighting around long enough for the cops to talk to them. So the rest of the night, Coach Shiftlett stood in the middle of the road with his flashlight directing traffic and making sure people behaved. It just really annoyed me that there are such sad individuals around that will try to ruin something for the kids. I almost had to send my brother and sister, who both decided not to trick or treat but hand out candy instead, because of the language that was spewing out of both adults mouths.

I realize this blog is kind of skipping around but I don’t really feel like sticking to one subject. I have had a very stressful day and I am just waiting on my clothes to dry so I can fold them and finish packing. We are going to leave around 2 PM tomorrow after Beth gets out of class so I have some time in the morning to also get things ready. So, if I don’t get time to blog while in the mountains, I hope everyone has a great end of the week and weekend! I know I surely will be! So until next time, later loves!

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Quite frankly, you’re smashing!

So the time alone with Rans is officially over. I had a lot of fun and I’m hoping we have a chance to spend some more one on one time in the future. Actually, I know we will since we are planning a trip either the middle or end of October. The 12th of October will be our one year anniversary of being together this go around. We’re really stoked to go out of town, but we just need to decide where exactly we want to go so I can book it up before we leave for the beach with my family the end of this month. Wow, we officially leave for the beach in 19 days! Holy cow!

Anyways, the weekend went really great except for us almost breaking up over stupid crap. Well, we didn’t almost break up but we did get into an argument. Our first big argument although I guess now that I think about it, it wasn’t that big. Basically the fight was over where we want to live since he wants to move to Ohio and I love it here and then he said he didn’t want to live close to our families and that erupting some very old wounds for me. With my ex of three years, he tried to keep me from my family all the time and that was just a big deja vu moment with me and Rans. In the end, we worked it out. He knows I don’t want to move and he understands that. He wasn’t thinking about the big picture as in, what if we have kids? What about our kids getting to know their grandparents? He doesn’t think about things like that and that’s why we’re perfect for each other in the way that we balance each other out. I think the most hurtful thing about our fight was me thinking about my future without him in it. That just really shattered me. I’m just glad everything is over and done and the conversation has been put to rest. We don’t know where we will live but we do know it will be near our parents and our vacations will be spent in Ohio. Lol.

I really just wanted to pop on to make a quick blog. I missed blogging, wow. Right now I don’t have time to really elaborate on my stay with Rans other than it was amazing and all that jazz. I have a sandwich report to do for my Education class that is due tomorrow and then I have an art midterm to study for all while preparing for an essay in English. Oh boy. Kateness is a busy girl. My final and last day of my Education class is this Thursday which is going to be really sad for me. I love all the people in my class because they ROCK! Also on Thursday, Rans will be up here and we’re headed to the Alabama line for some fireworks for this weekend. Oh yeah. Nothing like fireworks and homemade ice cream I say! So until next time, later lovelies!