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See you in my nightmares

It is currently 3 AM and here I sit at my computer. All day I’ve had a really bad migraine and this afternoon it got a lot worse to the point I was crying in my bed because my head hurt so bad that even my hair hurt when someone would touch it. I don’t know what’s going on but my mom is thinking my migraines are stress induced because I have so much on me currently. Stress seems to be a big thing for me lately and it’s invading all of my life, even my dreams.

I have had the same nightmare for the past three nights. It starts out with my family and Jonathan going on a vacation to a tropical place on a beach. After we unpack our Titan luggage and settle in, Jonathan and I decided to go to the beach. In my dream, it was like we had a long pier-like dock that went out into the water. It was so weird because I dreamed of the beach but it was almost like a lake. Anyways, the water was full of people but as I looked down into the water I could see a swarm of sea turtles, dolphins, fish, and sharks. They were everywhere all clustered together which is really odd. Anyways, Jonathan and I swim around on floats and mingle with people when I decide to get out of the water. I swim to the dock, climb halfway up and a shark comes and chomps off half of my body. I could literally feel it and I remember looking down to see blood gushing everywhere. In my dream I screamed out and everyone, including my mom and Jonathan, heard me but no one came to my rescue. I was sobbing and just stuck there and I remember thinking that I was invisible in a way. For some reason the dream starts over and this time I see someone else get their lower half bit off by a shark and then I am chased by one throughout the water. I have no idea what this means but it is starting to freak me out. Now, I’m scared to go to the beach and get in the ocean.

I talked to my mom and sister about my dreams and my mom thinks it’s because of everything I have going on and I feel so helpless. Also, my sister thinks the cluster of sea life is everything I have on me as well all swarming together. Maybe that is what it means but I wish this dream would buzz off. When I told Jonathan about my dream he just said next time to wake him up and I should know he would have saved me, lol. My sister said she would have stabbed a shark if she was there. I know my family wouldn’t sit there and let something so horrible happen to me but I can’t control my dreams, ya know? Have you ever had weird dreams like this? I’m going to do some googling on dream meanings to see if I can figure everything out since I can’t sleep. I took one of my mom’s pain pills that normally knocks me out and makes my migraine go away but no such luck this time. So I will stick to googling dream meanings and playing apps on facebook. So until next time, later loves.

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A sigh of relief

It’s hilarious how I talk about my brother and sister-in-law and he happens to be the one that awoken me from my nice little nap. Thanks big brother! He called because he is looking to get my sister-in-law a new computer and printer since theirs isn’t there best. Evidently, their computer and printer has crapped out so it’s time to buy a new one. He wanted to know what I recommend as far as brands and where to shop since we literally went from having four computer stores to like one, Staples. So after a twenty minute conversation, I’m interested to find out what he buys in the end.

Aside from the lack of sleep I’ve had lately, I am happy to report that my mood has improved completely. In fact, no more acne solutions for me because my face has cleared up which has given me confidence back. I really am unsure what is going on with me but I’m just glad it’s not affecting me at this moment. I just thought today during class that it could be because of my thyroid level since I’ve been waiting to have it checked since I don’t have insurance. So I guess I need to bite the bullet and have it drawn. Hopefully once I have it drawn, my Dr. can adjust my level and I can feel better again. This whole having seasonal depression and no energy at all mixed with my whole body hurting is for the birds.

My classes went really well today. I think I made a 100 on my test I had in geography over the map. I knew where everything was and was glad I studied a little extra as I was getting to bed last night. In my education class, we went over teachers’ salaries and the prospective jobs when we graduate. It turns out my first year of teaching I can expect to bring in $40,000. Also, within five years, 50% of Georgia teachers will be retiring which is awesome since I will be graduating when they are in time for retirement. Another thing our professor told us about was that in 2020, there is an expected need of 20,000 teachers in Georgia and last year, the state only turned out 4,400 teachers which means my future is looking even brighter. This class gave me the biggest sigh of relief because finding a job has been something I’ve been very worried about. This all took a big burden off of my shoulders because even if I don’t find a job once I graduate, I know I can head to school for my master’s degree and find a job within the first year. Out of all the graduates from West Georgia this spring, only two didn’t find a job because they weren’t willing to take the job offered to them. So, even with the recession, all of them were offered jobs and if I have to travel, so be it. Even if I have to move, so be it, because I can stay there until something closer opens up. I am not going to panic over my future because generally when you get a job as a teacher, you have a job for life.

I don’t know if it’s my good mood or my amazing class today, but I feel in a great mood. I think I’m going to go cuddle with the fiance and watch a movie. He expressed how much he misses spending time with me last night and it made me realize that even though we live together, we don’t spend that much quality time together because of my school schedule and his. We need to make more time for each other! So until next time, later loves.

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Online is better at times

The other day I was looking up West Georgia University University and accidently typed in the wrong web address and came across Western Governors Online University which seemed interesting so I decided to check it out. Yes, I was bored and this happens quite a lot with me these days. Basically, the school is an online university which in my eyes is pretty awesome in itself. I’ve always loved the benefits of online schools but was always scared about their accreditation. Believe it or not, Western Governors Online University IS accredited. I can just imagine how many people this college is going to benefit because let’s face it, not everyone has the time nor the resources to go to school and sit in a class. College is expensive and with the current recession going on, most people have to work in loo of going to school which is completely understandable. I was also impressed how affordable this college was as well. So affordable compared to my college that I forwarded the link to my sister-in-law. She wants to go finish her business degree but is finding a hard time because she needs to work in order for her and my brother to make ends meet. He can pay the bills on his own but having three kids has added expenses and since his work has been having lay offs quite frequently she has had to work as well. The good news is that Western Governors Online University offers an online business degree program which my sister-in-law could majorly benefit from!

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Up & Down & Away we go

So evidently the servers all of my sites were hosted on crashed and I had to change the IP’s to the nameservers. This happened Monday night after I came home from class and crashed so hence why my domain went down. Hopefully things will be back to normal. *crosses fingers* It seems I have really bad luck when it comes to servers lately and I am really regretting the switch but hopefully things stabilize. The one thing I cannot stand is my site being unstable and never knowing if it’s going to be up or down. That drives me completely bonkers.

I have a lot of important decisions to make financially very soon. My brother is selling his Tahoe and is willing to sell it to me for $5,000 less than what he wants for it since I am a student and getting married. So in the next few days I need to look up car insurance reviews and some quotes on the Tahoe. This will be my first vehicle purchase since my mom bought my current car. I’m really scared and worried because that’s a big deal. I also need to decide on what to do about my wedding. I am stressing about the cost of it and trying to make it look nice without spending an arm and a leg. I need to finalize what I’m going to do for food at the reception and how to do my flowers as well. I also need to decide on a photographer so I can get my engagement pictures made ASAP as well. I have so much on my plate but I can’t worry about that right now because I need a good night’s rest before my test tomorrow. It’s a geography test on a map of the Ottoman/Papal States during the middle ages or whatever. I suck at maps but I have studied my heart out. Hopefully I can score an A! So it’s time to head to bed. Please bare with my ever changing server state and hopefully my sites are up for good!

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Best of intentions

My so called unstressful weekend was obviously a thought made in vain because this weekend now is getting stressful. I wanted to get my paper finished so I can relax today but I waited until the last minute as usual. I don’t think this weekend would have been so bad if my brother and sister would behave and do what they are supposed to be doing. Family drama can really bring a person down. Also, our new dog evidently has a bad stomach problem and that woke me up this morning since I had to clean it up. Ugh. I’m so tired of crap, literally. I know the dog can’t help it but that just was the straw that broke the camel’s back so to say.

So instead of freaking out like I usually do, I am going to concentrate on getting things done instead of concentrating on what needs to do. I’m going to be a person of action. The thing that really has me peeved about all of the stress is my face. It is starting to break out and I’ve noticed since my doctor swapped me from Yazmin to plain Yaz it’s been doing that a lot. I guess I will have to find one of the best acne treatment products and get it taken care of. I did pick up some acne spot treatment stuff from Clean & Clear at Wal-Mart and aside from it burning when I put it on, it seems to be working. I just hate looking like a pubescent teenager. I thought I was done of my acne days. Hopefully this stuff works because I am planning on getting engagement pictures in the next week or two and I’ll be darned if I have them made when I have a pimple! Is it me or is my new theme of my blog stress?! Lol, that’s quite sad but I’m sure all of you fellow students can completely understand this.

I guess I will go ahead and get some laundry done in between loads of laundry and then start the preparations for our cookout. I just want this day to be over with so I can sleep. Unfortunately, tomorrow happens to be my busiest day where I’m at school practically off and on all day which takes a big toll on my body. I can’t wait until I’m done with school. I love it at times but then other times it is the bane of my existence. So until next time, later loves.