See you in my nightmares
It is currently 3 AM and here I sit at my computer. All day I’ve had a really bad migraine and this afternoon it got a lot worse to the point I was crying in my bed because my head hurt so bad that even my hair hurt when someone would touch it. I don’t know what’s going on but my mom is thinking my migraines are stress induced because I have so much on me currently. Stress seems to be a big thing for me lately and it’s invading all of my life, even my dreams.
I have had the same nightmare for the past three nights. It starts out with my family and Jonathan going on a vacation to a tropical place on a beach. After we unpack our Titan luggage and settle in, Jonathan and I decided to go to the beach. In my dream, it was like we had a long pier-like dock that went out into the water. It was so weird because I dreamed of the beach but it was almost like a lake. Anyways, the water was full of people but as I looked down into the water I could see a swarm of sea turtles, dolphins, fish, and sharks. They were everywhere all clustered together which is really odd. Anyways, Jonathan and I swim around on floats and mingle with people when I decide to get out of the water. I swim to the dock, climb halfway up and a shark comes and chomps off half of my body. I could literally feel it and I remember looking down to see blood gushing everywhere. In my dream I screamed out and everyone, including my mom and Jonathan, heard me but no one came to my rescue. I was sobbing and just stuck there and I remember thinking that I was invisible in a way. For some reason the dream starts over and this time I see someone else get their lower half bit off by a shark and then I am chased by one throughout the water. I have no idea what this means but it is starting to freak me out. Now, I’m scared to go to the beach and get in the ocean.
I talked to my mom and sister about my dreams and my mom thinks it’s because of everything I have going on and I feel so helpless. Also, my sister thinks the cluster of sea life is everything I have on me as well all swarming together. Maybe that is what it means but I wish this dream would buzz off. When I told Jonathan about my dream he just said next time to wake him up and I should know he would have saved me, lol. My sister said she would have stabbed a shark if she was there. I know my family wouldn’t sit there and let something so horrible happen to me but I can’t control my dreams, ya know? Have you ever had weird dreams like this? I’m going to do some googling on dream meanings to see if I can figure everything out since I can’t sleep. I took one of my mom’s pain pills that normally knocks me out and makes my migraine go away but no such luck this time. So I will stick to googling dream meanings and playing apps on facebook. So until next time, later loves.
2 Comments »A sigh of relief
It’s hilarious how I talk about my brother and sister-in-law and he happens to be the one that awoken me from my nice little nap. Thanks big brother! He called because he is looking to get my sister-in-law a new computer and printer since theirs isn’t there best. Evidently, their computer and printer has crapped out so it’s time to buy a new one. He wanted to know what I recommend as far as brands and where to shop since we literally went from having four computer stores to like one, Staples. So after a twenty minute conversation, I’m interested to find out what he buys in the end.
Aside from the lack of sleep I’ve had lately, I am happy to report that my mood has improved completely. In fact, no more acne solutions for me because my face has cleared up which has given me confidence back. I really am unsure what is going on with me but I’m just glad it’s not affecting me at this moment. I just thought today during class that it could be because of my thyroid level since I’ve been waiting to have it checked since I don’t have insurance. So I guess I need to bite the bullet and have it drawn. Hopefully once I have it drawn, my Dr. can adjust my level and I can feel better again. This whole having seasonal depression and no energy at all mixed with my whole body hurting is for the birds.
My classes went really well today. I think I made a 100 on my test I had in geography over the map. I knew where everything was and was glad I studied a little extra as I was getting to bed last night. In my education class, we went over teachers’ salaries and the prospective jobs when we graduate. It turns out my first year of teaching I can expect to bring in $40,000. Also, within five years, 50% of Georgia teachers will be retiring which is awesome since I will be graduating when they are in time for retirement. Another thing our professor told us about was that in 2020, there is an expected need of 20,000 teachers in Georgia and last year, the state only turned out 4,400 teachers which means my future is looking even brighter. This class gave me the biggest sigh of relief because finding a job has been something I’ve been very worried about. This all took a big burden off of my shoulders because even if I don’t find a job once I graduate, I know I can head to school for my master’s degree and find a job within the first year. Out of all the graduates from West Georgia this spring, only two didn’t find a job because they weren’t willing to take the job offered to them. So, even with the recession, all of them were offered jobs and if I have to travel, so be it. Even if I have to move, so be it, because I can stay there until something closer opens up. I am not going to panic over my future because generally when you get a job as a teacher, you have a job for life.
I don’t know if it’s my good mood or my amazing class today, but I feel in a great mood. I think I’m going to go cuddle with the fiance and watch a movie. He expressed how much he misses spending time with me last night and it made me realize that even though we live together, we don’t spend that much quality time together because of my school schedule and his. We need to make more time for each other! So until next time, later loves.
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