Tick tock

Hey everyone! I know, I’ve been a horrible blogger yet again but there has been so much happening lately it isn’t even funny!

We will back up to December 16 when I had my doctor’s appointment with the new doctor. First off, I love my doctor! She is so amazing and supporting and spent forty-five minutes with me just answering my various questions. It turns out I have PCOS which at that moment shattered me. I felt broken and less of a woman because this greatly reduces my chances of getting pregnant and since I was planning on getting engaged, it made me feel like I wouldn’t be able to offer Jonathan this great future which broke my heart. I told him the news and he was upset as well but he was very supportive about everything which is what I needed at the time. I honestly thought that because of my diagnosis, he wouldn’t want to marry me. I know that sounds stupid but for ever since I can remember I’ve always dreamed of being a mom and having at least three kids. Another part of my dilemma is that I know of a close family friend that has PCOS and she hasn’t been able to get pregnant after numerous attempts with all sorts of medication.

Jonathan obviously surprised me big time because that night, even after knowing about the chance we would never have kids, PROPOSED! Yes, he got down on one knee and all in front of the lighted fountain at the forum in Rome. It was so beautiful there at night even though we froze our butts off. My ring is gorgeous and I mean gorgeous. I am quite surprised at his taste. My baby knows how to pick a ring I tell ya. Lol. Of course I said yes!! It was so cute though because he was so nervous and before he asked he went into this big long explanation about how he had this speech planned and it was so romantic and everything but at the last second his mind totally blanked and he felt stupid for it. I could not believe how nervous he was, but later that night he told me the speech and it was the sweetest thing ever.

Now since I am running out of time, I will make a list of what else has happened:
- Christmas was awesome!!
- I got to see my dad who is really depressed with his diagnosis of liver disease but evidently I cheered him up by being around him.
- Jonathan’s grandma got really sick and passed away.
- I’ve been spending most of my time consoling him and just being there for him because per him, I’m all he has.
- We picked out bridesmaid dresses and the color of the guys vests and ties for their tuxes.
- I have basically picked out two wedding dresses and will try them on Tuesday.
- I have a full-load of classes this semester.
- Evidently per my friends, my history professor is hard as crap and if you don’t pay attention to his lectures, you’re dead!
- I have to be at my first class in 45 minutes!

With that said, I am out. I wanted to quickly blog and update all my lovelies on my hectic life. I will post a pic of my ring later! I love it and love wearing it!! Hehe, I’m like a giddy school girl I swear. Also, I will now have time in the morning to blog, so yay! So until next time, later loves!