Upsets & Heartbreaks

I had one of the worst nights ever last night. My nerves were completely shot since not having my medicine and when we got to Wal-Mart last night, the pharmacy was closed. So I bit my tongue and dealt with it. What else was I supposed to do? After two hours of browsing the store, my mom still wasn’t done and my siblings were getting on my last nerve to the point I couldn’t take anymore. I had to get out. The only way to explain how I felt is to imagine yourself on an emotional roller coaster. My hormones are out of whack which messes up how I feel and react to certain situations. I would snap at my mom and not even realize what I was saying. So finally, I just left Wal-Mart and my mom called my sister to come pick her and my siblings up. I had to go home and on my way I basically told Rans not to bother coming up here because I was in such a piss poor mood. After a long bath and being basically “served” by Rans; my mood improved big time. He basically told me I had a lot going for me right now, him, my family, and school so I should feel the way I did. Last night I hated myself and how I was being.

So this morning it was my goal to wake up and be in a better mood and so far, so good. I even fought through biting my tongue off when my siblings were once again being hellions. I think they have a lot to do with my moods because they are all the time getting in trouble, lying, and being lazy by not doing what they are supposed to be doing which causes drama in the house. Not to mention, my brother is always “stealing” food in the middle of the night. My mom and I have certain foods and snacks we can eat while on Weight Watchers and he goes and eats them all and then lies about it. We find wrappers under his bed and in his nightstand drawer, and then he wonders why we can never trust him. My house is a chaotic place and I really need to get out every now and then.

Now I’m on my way to Wal-Mart to get a bike! Got to get in shape! So I will blog more later. Bye lovelies!