That was so me.

Ever since things have started falling into place in my life, I’ve been spending a lot of time reflecting upon what I have to feel thankful for and what I would like to work on to better myself. I know I spent a lot of my life going through the day to day and never thinking about the others I affected around me. Heck, in my teen years it was all about me, me, and oh yeah, me. I think everyone goes through phases like that but since my mom’s wreck, I’ve really been trying to be more aware of the things I do and how they affect the people that surround me. I guess I’m trying to become a better person and control my moodiness at times so I will learn to have more patience once I start teaching. At least that’s what I’m telling myself. lol.

Tonight the boyfriend decided to play Mr. Fix It. You see, two weeks ago, he bought me a new door knob for my room. This one locks with a key and we gave my mom the keys to it. My old door locked but my little sister and brother would unlock it with their fingernails, crafty little kids. Well, since the boyfriend installed it, my door won’t shut. It’s the thing the thing is supposed to latch into. I have no idea what to call it but after about an hour of messing with it, he fixed it. He fixed it way before that but we noticed the bottom hinge to my door was completely off so we put it back on and that changed how the door locked. Then we had a hard time making the door latch because the new door knob was different than my old one so he chiseled some of my door frame out so it would finally latch. How lucky am I to have a sexy Mr. Fix It.

I really didn’t want to put this on my blog but my Lord, he completely surprised me last night. I’m not big on being touch feely and one to make out all the time but wow, I love being close to him. I love laying in his arms and he definitely was macking last night. That’s okay, he is allowed to. Needless to say I really had bed hair afterward. He is the only one I’ve felt passion for I guess you could say. It’s like this feeling comes over me where I want to feel close to him and I want his hands on my body and my hands on his. Plus, I’ve never had a guy literally drive me crazy and to the point where I am shaking from feeling overwhelmingly awesome. I don’t know how else to describe it. My boyfriend is talented. And no, we did not have sex. That’s one thing I don’t see us doing for a while. I like this stage of our relationship though. Ever since he announced I’m the one and we’re going to get married one day, it feels like we’re reintroducing ourselves to each other. Everything seems brand new because I have a whole new comfort level with him. I feel relaxed and like I know he loves me for me and I love him for him. It’s amazing.

The only downside to my night is Mary calling crying. She’s having guy troubles and is upset. I feel so bad for her because Mary is an awesome girl and deserves a guy right for her. Maybe she will find him. It seems like a lot of people around me are having relationship problems. My friend Jon is trying to get back with a girl he adores and slowly is trying to earn her trust back. I hope he does. Jon (who is known as Brain and I’m Pinky, get it, Pinky and the Brain!!) is an amazing guy and has always been there for me. He is honestly my saving grace. Besides Rans, he’s the most important guys in my life. It’s great having a guy friend you can tell your troubles to and get the guy perspective from, ya know?

Anyways, I just wanted to write a blog and get some things off my chest. The whole thankfulness came from me uploading pictures to my new Flickr account and memories come rushing back of happy moments in my life. So as usual, until next time, later gators!