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See ya January!

I cannot believe January is already ending. Time really flies. I don’t really have much to say except I am still not feeling that great. I’ve missed all week of classes but thank God for e-mail or else I’d be so stressed because I’d be behind. I really don’t have that much to make up and I was able to talk to all my instructors except my speech class. She will just have to let me know when I go to class Tuesday unless I can talk to her on Monday during her office hours.

So anyways I thought I’d post at the end of every month what all happened and then what I’m looking forward to next month. So here goes.

January:
• 2009, baby!
• Took the COMPASS.
• Went to orientation for Highlands.
• Monster Jam with Rans on the 10th
• Started classes at Highlands.
• 3 Months with Rans!!! <3
• Nick’s 11th Birthday!
• 1 year me & Rans have known each other on the 22nd.
• Papa Shepard passed away.
• I got really sick and missed a week of classes!

And in February I’m looking forward to:
• Valentine’s Day!
• My best friend Jon moving back here.
• Mine & Rans’ 4 month anniversary.

So here’s to hoping February is a kick-ass month for me!

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Double Whammy!

I seriously have been hit by a double whammy. Not only do I have to deal with a death in the family this week, I am also sick as a dog! I did, however, go to the doctor today. I had to because I was feel so awful. Basically I have a severe sinus infection and was given two medications to take twice daily. Sure doc, anything to feel better.

Only bad part about being sick was not getting to spend as much time with Rans as I’d hope for. We did spend time but I didn’t like feeling horrible during that time. He came up Sunday night after work and we spent Sunday spending time together. We had fun, that’s all I can say and just in the nick of time as well thanks to my monthly friend visiting late Sunday night. Wait, that makes everything a triple whammy. On Monday we went out to eat and to Circuit City. I got the calculator I needed for class since Circuit City was having a going out of business sale and I got a new head unit for my car. The lovely boyfriend will be installing the head unit. This one I can hook my Ipod up to so I am uber happy about that. And the rest of last night was spent watching TV with my mom and just chilling. He had to work today but still decided to stay last night to spend some extra time.

All of last night I kept sneezing and he’d look at me and say, “you’re getting sick, baby,” to which I’d just roll my eyes at him. I am a very bad patient. All my childhood was spent getting sick every time the weather changed and when I hit adulthood it suddenly went away and I’m hardly ever sick. So now when I do get sick I HATE IT!

I just wanted to make a quick post. I have to figure out how to catch up in my classes I missed. I seriously hate missing class because then I feel so behind and get overly stressed trying to catch up. Also, this post is pretty pointless if you haven’t noticed. I just feel the need to ramble. Hope everyone is feeling a lot better than I am!! I don’t even think I’m gonna get to go to the funeral tomorrow. My mom threatened me if I had a fever I wasn’t going. Ugh, I was even going to wear a dress and that’s a big thing for me. I was wanting to go to be there for my step-mom but I know going sick and being around my dad is not a good idea. He can’t afford to be sick with everything else that’s going on with him. So until next time, later gators!

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Memories Last Forever

Isn’t it funny how when we don’t think about a person for a while and then something reminds us of that person all these great memories come flooding back? That’s really happened a lot to me today. My Papa Shephard died this morning. I knew it was going to happen, it was inevitable. Last weekend my brother told me he was doing really bad since he had to take our dad up there to be with my step-mom.

I am having conflicting feelings about this because I am very upset by his death and then I feel horrible for not seeing him in a long time. He’s been in a nursing home and per my step-mom didn’t remember anybody which is an awful thing to have to sit through, your loved one not even remembering you. He is only my step-grandpa so I wasn’t ultra close to him but to me, any death is sad. Even perfect strangers dying upsets me because I always think to the family they leave behind.

I guess every time I hear of someone dying that I’m close to or close to someone I know, it makes me realize how short life is. That’s why I try to live in the now and make the most out of my life. I hate that I waited to so long to finally decide what I want to do with my life but better late than never. I will post more later because right now I need to get dressed so I can run to the grocery store. So until next time, later gators!

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That was so me.

Ever since things have started falling into place in my life, I’ve been spending a lot of time reflecting upon what I have to feel thankful for and what I would like to work on to better myself. I know I spent a lot of my life going through the day to day and never thinking about the others I affected around me. Heck, in my teen years it was all about me, me, and oh yeah, me. I think everyone goes through phases like that but since my mom’s wreck, I’ve really been trying to be more aware of the things I do and how they affect the people that surround me. I guess I’m trying to become a better person and control my moodiness at times so I will learn to have more patience once I start teaching. At least that’s what I’m telling myself. lol.

Tonight the boyfriend decided to play Mr. Fix It. You see, two weeks ago, he bought me a new door knob for my room. This one locks with a key and we gave my mom the keys to it. My old door locked but my little sister and brother would unlock it with their fingernails, crafty little kids. Well, since the boyfriend installed it, my door won’t shut. It’s the thing the thing is supposed to latch into. I have no idea what to call it but after about an hour of messing with it, he fixed it. He fixed it way before that but we noticed the bottom hinge to my door was completely off so we put it back on and that changed how the door locked. Then we had a hard time making the door latch because the new door knob was different than my old one so he chiseled some of my door frame out so it would finally latch. How lucky am I to have a sexy Mr. Fix It.

I really didn’t want to put this on my blog but my Lord, he completely surprised me last night. I’m not big on being touch feely and one to make out all the time but wow, I love being close to him. I love laying in his arms and he definitely was macking last night. That’s okay, he is allowed to. Needless to say I really had bed hair afterward. He is the only one I’ve felt passion for I guess you could say. It’s like this feeling comes over me where I want to feel close to him and I want his hands on my body and my hands on his. Plus, I’ve never had a guy literally drive me crazy and to the point where I am shaking from feeling overwhelmingly awesome. I don’t know how else to describe it. My boyfriend is talented. And no, we did not have sex. That’s one thing I don’t see us doing for a while. I like this stage of our relationship though. Ever since he announced I’m the one and we’re going to get married one day, it feels like we’re reintroducing ourselves to each other. Everything seems brand new because I have a whole new comfort level with him. I feel relaxed and like I know he loves me for me and I love him for him. It’s amazing.

The only downside to my night is Mary calling crying. She’s having guy troubles and is upset. I feel so bad for her because Mary is an awesome girl and deserves a guy right for her. Maybe she will find him. It seems like a lot of people around me are having relationship problems. My friend Jon is trying to get back with a girl he adores and slowly is trying to earn her trust back. I hope he does. Jon (who is known as Brain and I’m Pinky, get it, Pinky and the Brain!!) is an amazing guy and has always been there for me. He is honestly my saving grace. Besides Rans, he’s the most important guys in my life. It’s great having a guy friend you can tell your troubles to and get the guy perspective from, ya know?

Anyways, I just wanted to write a blog and get some things off my chest. The whole thankfulness came from me uploading pictures to my new Flickr account and memories come rushing back of happy moments in my life. So as usual, until next time, later gators!

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Love Always

If you haven’t noticed already, there is a new theme up. It’s called “Love Always” and I really like the color scheme. I made it for Valentine’s Day and decided to go ahead and put it up cause I might not have time to code it other than the time I had today. Hope you like and if not, oh well.

On the Rans front, evidently he wasn’t so busy working. Instead, he was busy thinking about us. He came to the conclusion I am Mrs. Right and we are going to get married one day. He said he’d never find anyone like me. He loved me more than he could ever imagine loving someone else and he knew he’d never find someone that treated him the way I do. Evidently I make him feel loved. Since he told me all of this, things have just clicked with us. His own thinking and then telling me about what he was thinking led me to my own thinking. I skipped my only class Tuesday and just sat around trying to mull over everything he said and trying to gather and organize my own thoughts.

My conclusion you might ask is that I feel the same way. It just shocked me to hear someone say the things I always wanted to hear. I’ve been waiting my whole life for someone like him. Now that my mom knows about our talk, she’s talking weddings. I am, too. I really hate to admit that since I have never been the one to be all girly and talk about weddings. We don’t plan on getting engaged until later. He knows I can’t handle that right now. I love him but I have a lot going for me at once. Plus, we’ve only been back together for three months but we’ve known each other for a year. Actually, today marks a year exactly but it seems like forever. We don’t want to get married until after I get done with school but now I’m leaning towards between Highlands and West Georgia. Lol. I will be at Highlands for two years and then West Georgia for two. I don’t want to wait four years to get married. For once, I’m excited for my future. I have some things to look forward to.

Tonight at class I was talking to my friend Kathy about what I wanted to do with my teaching degree. I am really leaning towards teaching Special Ed. I love working with children who everyone considers lost causes. I relate to them and they seem to respond really well to me. I don’t consider any child to be a lost cause. Some just take a little longer to get things and with kids who take more time you can just see the light bulb go off in their head and that’s rewarding. Well, at least it is to me. So I’m keeping my Early Childhood Education major and going to take the GACE for Early Childhood AND Special Ed so I can have my pick.

I really need to fold some laundry and clean off my bed before Rans gets here. I can’t wait to see him. I feel like a giddy school girl because he honestly makes me seem like one. I get all giggly when he’s around. So until next time, later gators.