Somedays, I wish I were in a fairytale

So much for uploading all of my Halloween photos because today I didn’t even wake up until well after noon. I swear when I woke up I felt like a freight train had ran my ass over. My whole body hurts and my throat is doing that let’s play with fire every time Kate swallows. Yeah throat, I love you too. I kind of had an accident with my bed so now one of my slats is completely messed up. The other day I moved my bed over to get something and unplug something and when I moved it back this slat wouldn’t go in place. So I being Miss Brilliant kicked it and jammed it into place. That so was not smart considering it decided to break two days ago and I had to sleep feeling like my head was downhill and my feet were uphill. That is so not good for my lungs! So that is the main reason I woke up at 7 AM this morning with a migraine from hell and a neck ache. When I grabbed my phone and looked to see the time I noticed I had a text message which was from Rans asking me if I was sick and telling me he had a fever of 101. So I guess I’m not the only sick one!

Moving on from the subject of sickness, I text messaged Rans to tell him we needed to talk. See, I have a problem with accepting compliments and when he gives them, I either say some smartass comeback or I completely play it off which makes me feel stupid. I guess when I look in the mirror, I don’t see anything worth complimenting on. I in no ways think I’m the ugliest person but I just don’t think I’m pretty or what not. Well, when he gives me compliments and tells me certain things I do feel pretty but only for a split second. Well, he assumed since I told him the dreaded “we need to talk” I was breaking up with him. Poor babe. I immediately explained and now everything is all good. I really want to learn how to be the loving and caring girlfriend that I want to be, I’m just too scared to be. I’m so scared that once I open up, things will go horribly wrong and I will be all alone again. Only this time, I know I’m with who I am supposed to be with and I know its forever. I just have some things to work out with the inner me which is a lot easier to address with this blog. So yes readers, your blogista is a very insecure girl trying to break out of her shell slowly but surely. I can’t change over night. I have so many things to get over and so many fuck you’s to say before I can move on!

Anyways, I am going to go play Sims 2 with Selena, my little sister. She is sick, too. She managed to sleep even later than I did which is really rare and bless her heart, she has a really bad cough! So I’m playing big sister and going to play the Sims and eat blow pops! Ha. So until next time, later gators! And Selena says good night all!