I can’t believe him, seriously.
My dad needs to invest in some protective clothing as in a suit of armor because right now I am so mad and disapointed in him it’s not even funny. I have been going over our wedding budget over and over with my mom and we really need my dad to put in some money as well. Unfortunately, he basically told me I had no business getting into this situation in the first place. Seriously!? What situation am I getting in? Evidently per him I am having a big wedding and that is not the truth. A wedding is expensive even if you are doing a lot on your own. I am sorry he feels that way but seriously why take everything out on me? I really have a feeling I won’t be sleeping much tonight which sucks since I have classes tomorrow. Seriously, can people please stop crapping on me at every turn? I’m really getting annoyed with it. I just don’t understand my father and I guess I never will.
Well, I believe it’s time to dry up my tears and try to get some rest before bed. I feel so brokenhearted right now but hopefully things will get better with or without his help. I’m just done with him because all my life he’s only been there to put me down and feel worthless instead of loving and supporting me as a father should. So until next time, later.
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It is currently 3 AM and here I sit at my computer. All day I’ve had a really bad migraine and this afternoon it got a lot worse to the point I was crying in my bed because my head hurt so bad that even my hair hurt when someone would touch it. I don’t know what’s going on but my mom is thinking my migraines are stress induced because I have so much on me currently. Stress seems to be a big thing for me lately and it’s invading all of my life, even my dreams.
I have had the same nightmare for the past three nights. It starts out with my family and Jonathan going on a vacation to a tropical place on a beach. After we unpack our Titan luggage and settle in, Jonathan and I decided to go to the beach. In my dream, it was like we had a long pier-like dock that went out into the water. It was so weird because I dreamed of the beach but it was almost like a lake. Anyways, the water was full of people but as I looked down into the water I could see a swarm of sea turtles, dolphins, fish, and sharks. They were everywhere all clustered together which is really odd. Anyways, Jonathan and I swim around on floats and mingle with people when I decide to get out of the water. I swim to the dock, climb halfway up and a shark comes and chomps off half of my body. I could literally feel it and I remember looking down to see blood gushing everywhere. In my dream I screamed out and everyone, including my mom and Jonathan, heard me but no one came to my rescue. I was sobbing and just stuck there and I remember thinking that I was invisible in a way. For some reason the dream starts over and this time I see someone else get their lower half bit off by a shark and then I am chased by one throughout the water. I have no idea what this means but it is starting to freak me out. Now, I’m scared to go to the beach and get in the ocean.
I talked to my mom and sister about my dreams and my mom thinks it’s because of everything I have going on and I feel so helpless. Also, my sister thinks the cluster of sea life is everything I have on me as well all swarming together. Maybe that is what it means but I wish this dream would buzz off. When I told Jonathan about my dream he just said next time to wake him up and I should know he would have saved me, lol. My sister said she would have stabbed a shark if she was there. I know my family wouldn’t sit there and let something so horrible happen to me but I can’t control my dreams, ya know? Have you ever had weird dreams like this? I’m going to do some googling on dream meanings to see if I can figure everything out since I can’t sleep. I took one of my mom’s pain pills that normally knocks me out and makes my migraine go away but no such luck this time. So I will stick to googling dream meanings and playing apps on facebook. So until next time, later loves.
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